That day I was having a stomachache.And I was in an urge to go to toilet. He saw me and was estatic. I walked out of the class. He followed. I increased my pace. He did the same. I ignored him but he ran up in front of me and stopped me. I couldn’t wait any longer. He said something which stunned me, “ junjie, you are no.10 in position.” Then he gave me the stupid grin RIGHT IN MY FACE which bothers me until today. I don’t know why something so trivial like this can even bother me for so long. It doesn’t sound like the real me. But yes, I knew deep down in my heart, I had taken this so seriously even I know I shouldn’t despite the inferior feeling that was so strong I can’t help it. I know he did mean something by it, why must he make people feel inferior? Or did he just laugh at my failure? Despising, detesting me?
There is certainly something wrong with me…mentally perhaps.