|11:42|
They say time is precious,
That time is of the essence,
But what is this illusion?
What is time?
It goes by, they say,
But I don't see anything.
They even say, how time flies,
Does it have wings?
Never have I seen it,
Never have I understood it's physical being.
But I do know some things,
I know the time that I'm away from you.
Time is precious.
It is of the essence.
But no time is worth my time,
Unless that time is spent with you.
How time weighs heavily on my heart.
Oh, how time does eat away at me.
Time is not physical, but rather spiritual,
For no time is more spiritual then when you're with me.
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
|22:07|
It was an unusual day indeed, a day at which everyone would call it a chinese new year. And also it was very hot, hot in the way that nobody would actually come to think of its intensity. Patently, there were something else of much higher priority in their minds. But everyone was exceptionally cheerful and uplifted that morning. As I looked around me, smiling faces was everywhere to be seen.
So it all started well with me gambling with relatives that afternoon. Actually earlier we did smell something strange, the smell of burning ashes, maybe? And we heard the sounds of things falling off or of rain pattering on the roof, something like that i guess. There was certainly something peculiar in that afternoon. But ya, we all dismissed it as the smell of fire crackles by some kids out there. Immediate thought of fire at that time does not seem to be possible, at all.
With hardly a whisper, time races on. It was when I turned around to the back door which opened widely that time, and saw it at once! The deadly enemy next to our house, coming closer, smiling evilly at us. I think I must be very blur at that instant because I was merely staring at the yellow-moving thingy within the windows, not knowing that it was fire. I only knew it when my aunt said it aloud. Too unexpected to think of a fire I guess. And mind you, the house that was on fire just next to our house and it was a small wood factory.
Everyone was rushing as if there was no tomorrow- driving their cars away from the house, taking out their children and their precious belongings out of the house. Confronted with such a shocking piece of news, many neighbours and friends living nearby started rushing to our house. Out of nowhere, hundreds of people and vehicles were blocking the road. It was such a chaotic scene. So we did what we could- phoned the bomba. There were some people splashing water at the fire ( which was actually stupid and useless, because the fire at that moment was big enough to burn their asses off) Others just glanced anxiously at the fire, treating it as some sort of unexpected live 'entertainment'. Everyone were all just so oblivious to everything and everyone else- only the fire reigns in their mind. No one or nothing else matters.
>>fast forward kay?<<
In the next 10 minutes, ashes and smokes were already hung heavily in the air. Hope was suddenly shattered and a sense of helplessness set in. Of course, someone was sure to be out the factory, a job, or worse. But these things are hard to keep in mind in the face of such immediate, visceral distraction. The unreality of such event is unnerving. From a distance, we all watched, transfixed, and imagined being in the thick of it.The temperature inside a fire of that magnitude must be hundreds of degrees. The unreality of such event is unnerving, but all it takes is stepping a little too close to be suddenly and thoroughly reminded of the certitude of physical harm. If the unreality of the major fire is unnerving, the reality is terrifying.
Fire is a force of nature. Fire is an overwhelming destructive power. A relentless, voracious monster who swallows things whole and shits them out black and carbonized, used up for their nutrients and left to smoulder in the wake. Fire moves in perfectly logical patterns, but is still utterly unpredictable. Frankly speaking, it was my first time to watching the downfall of the burning house so near, so helplessly in front of me as the fire grew stronger, increasing its ferocity. It is like the accelerated entropy, the utter breakdown of support and integrity and eventual collapse of solid matter into charred and smoking remains. It is as though a living, rampaging beast were tearing through the building knocking out walls and floors, giving birth to numberless offspring who will be nourished on wood and paper and carpet and will grow to rival their progenitor in size and power until there is nothing left for them to feed on, or they are brought to submission by their only natural predators- water or humanity. And in the end, when the brood is defeated, all is black and soggy.
Yes, as you can see, life is such an unpredictable plot. There is no way of knowing what or when something is going to befall us. Even if it is the first day of chinese new year. You won't know it, until it happens, would you? Emm, even now still a bit feverish, but yeah, I made an effort to post it here so you know what to do. *clap la*
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
|18:49|
Any tag invitation to ck has been kindly rejected by the owner of this blog. And, and ...The Attempt to have a good photo of ck put up has proved to be failed miserably! waakakka
Sorry lo. I am not that good a poser so if there's anything regarding photo-taking please don't invite me. Anyway, I really have no idea what the heck is that for. No point in doing right? I don't want to have such a thing to noob my blog. wakakka.
Tagging huh? You think it's dumb?
Yea, I think so too.
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Sunday, January 25, 2009
|21:10|
This is a true story from the Japanese Embassy in US.
A few years ago, Prime Minister Mori was given some Basic English conversation training before he visits Washington and meets president Bill Clinton.
The instructor told Mori "Prime Minister, when you shake hand with President Clinton, please say 'how are you'. Then Mr. Clinton should say, 'I'm fine, and you?' Now you should say 'me too'. Afterwards we, translators, will do all the work for you.''
It looks quite simple, but the truth is... when Mori met Clinton, he mistakenly said "Who Are You?" instead of "How are you". Mr. Clinton was a bit shocked but still managed to react with humour. "Well, I'm Hilary's husband, ha-ha..." Then Mori replied "Me too, ha-ha.."
Then there was a long silence in the meeting room.
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Saturday, January 24, 2009
|18:06|
All Is Vanity.What Do You See?
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Friday, January 23, 2009
|17:40|
Just something to let your mind relax and yeah, some really good stuffs.
The four images are the questions, see if you can get it right...
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
|15:19|
储存在我的心上 怎么可能把它遗忘
后来故事变得怎样 我们的手依然不放
我所有的悲伤 习惯有你陪伴
怎舍得 再重返孤单
答应你 我不会离去
我们只是 短暂的分离
我会在附近 紧握着回忆
陪着你前进
答应我 你不会哭泣
我们有过那么多约定
因为我相信 只要我相信
就会有奇迹
你说的我都体谅
我的秘密锁在你眼眶
我们从不同过往
并肩走向同一个方向
梦的重量压在我肩上
所幸有你分一些承担
满天的星光 把每一步照亮
所以我们 不会走散
答应你 我不会离去
我们只是 短暂的分离
我会在附近 紧握着回忆
陪着你前进
答应我 你不会哭泣
我们有过那么多约定
因为我相信 只要我相信
就会有奇迹
过去一个人 偶尔叹息
也曾想过要放弃
如今 不为自己 也要为了你
笑着让梦延续
答应你 我不会离去
我们只是 短暂的分离
我会在附近 紧握着回忆
陪着你前进
答应我 你不会哭泣
我们有过那么多约定
因为我相信 只要我相信
就会有奇迹
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Thursday, January 22, 2009
|22:27|
Hi,
I've received comments that the posts of late were rather gloomy over these few days. Well, that is sort of, my style of expression. But who cares? Nobody is gonna read it anyway right? And I'm pretty sure you guys wont have time to view blogs. So as i have said in my previous post, I was back to my lonely life. Meaning to say, there should be no more people concern or care for me, as in friends. So let's just continue lamenting because nobody will ever care! And guess what? I don't even CARE!
It was patent, wasn't it?
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
|19:51|
I was staring at the empty, unoccupied desk, at the corner of the room, trying to imagine herself there, and memorising what had happened lately. I know, in time, all these valuable memories will become so fragile, so breakable though it had made an imprint deep within my heart in just few days. Sighing, I got up and sat on my desk chair. I tossed back a few memories of hers so that I would concentrate on work. Truly speaking, I just can't do anything right. As the day passed by, my mind was hoping to find and erase more of the memories, because it's eating into my soul and I just couldn't concentrate. Or am I attributing my own emotions?
Somewhere, far back my mind was trying to find the recent picture of hers, hoping to lock or store it back into the memory of my head. The classroom seemed so empty as I looked around. Forlornly, I could hear the words being said in my head, all of them, all the words she had ever said to me. Her words...her words...her eyes...her smile...her heart...I can’t erase them. I don’t want to erase them. I don’t want to forget her. The irony of it all. But still, I have to move on with my life. And, the last time I saw her, she was speaking to me, as if a friend, a friend whom she had already known for years, as if a friend, and as if she cares.
Now, I am back to my lonely life. And all of it were rushing through my mind and the tears were falling down like a storm (no lah, of course, my sanity is somewhat intact and I can still control my emotions) Nah, guess I'm just too lonely and couldn't get used to it.
For memories fade
In light or shade
And time seems to heal
The pain that we feel,
But fear leads to greed
And a kind of need
That can make love run
Away from the sun
And hide in the shade
Where sadness is made
~
Fragments of my sorrows,
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Monday, January 19, 2009
|20:44|
So it has come to the end of the day. But I just wish I could backtrack time.
I never ever, want it to be ended this way.
Emotions. What are emotions?
Sometimes I feel like I possess none.
Sometimes I feel like it's too overwhelming.
In one spot of sunshine, we share spaces.
You were there, because I could feel you.
Together, we work our way up.
As long as you are there, we have no choice but to take up spaces.
Soon the time has passed but it was too little, for me, perhaps?
In one spot of sunshine, there's only space left for one.
You weren't there, because I no longer feel your existence.
We realised those steps we counted, mean nothing but merely numbers.
The thing we must understand, might merely be the difference of 1 and 10.
And before I could question my memories, my memories of you question me.
We will meet for the first time, with the same cry as our sign.
Please do not forget, I will always be here.
I will always be the same person. Remain constant.
We will definitely meet, with the same vibration as our sign.
Please do not forget, I will always be here, calling out for you.
Yes, we will finally meet, when fate decides to not playing a fool anymore.
Our promise will be complete, and we will become one.
This is the end of the line for me, or perhaps the line was already drawn somewhere long time ago.
And once again, I spoke too much here, figuring that nobody could see it.
And as time goes by, all the things I've done just waxes and wanes, because they are all fake.
Or perhaps real?
You can't tell.
At the top of the mountain the scenery is magnificent, but only one person can see it, another has to go.
Just like, In one spot of sunshine, there's only space left for one.
One word~ sad.
Fragments of my sorrows,
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Sunday, January 18, 2009
|19:04|
Hello,
You are what you eat.
And that's what everyone believes. Face it, friends- You are what you eat, what you eat is what you shit. You are what you shit. =>
LOL. Stupid theory that i thought of during the school assembly some time ago while listening to rama. But it's a little different from his version- you are what you throw, what you throw is what you call rubbish, you are so like rubbish. hahaha.
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Saturday, January 17, 2009
|19:05|
You would have no idea that I won the medal for you, or rather, because of you deep down in my heart, I won. What keeps me running was, strange as it sounds, an almost palpable force that surprising me by its intensity. Some unexplainable reactions, of emotions so vehement, so strong enough for my mind to control over my body, both physically and mentally.
Some people care for you openly. Others care for you in the dark.
Some people stand by you, beside you, visible.
Some people silently support you from behind.
Some people bond emotionally with you.
Some people don't speak much, because their actions are louder than their words.
Some people may be worlds apart and miles away, but they are with you.
Thank you, friends. You make my life much more meaningful =')
Because, because deep down your heart still care.
And I'll do my part for you too, promise?
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Friday, January 16, 2009
|23:33|
My legs muscles are in agony now. Darn! Because yesterday I have run 6km++ for the house practice? I think I must have used up all the energy stored. So yes, cross country is tomorrow and I have no idea how to face it, not with my current legs' condition. I will be a handicap tomorrow. Now it hurts even when I try to lift up my legs a little. Both of them. How to run? you tell me where to get a bicycle better, or maybe a shortcut back to school? >. <
Nevertheless, this pain is but a test of my endurance and I think I can make it past tonight- or most probably not. It would be a blessing if I could FEEL them tomorrow morning and I would be unduly grateful if that happens. Endure, ENDURE!!! . As I have said, this is but a MEAGRE test of my endurance. I hope time would be longer for tonight, longer enough to heal my wound. Tomorrow cross country, I wonder if I could even run for 1 km.
Toss a coin and let fate decide. Heads or Tails?
Today chem extra class was terrible. Because I don't understand a word uttered from chem teacher. I guess I seriously need to worry about my form 4 syllabus. But i can't be bothered to elaborate because I am in a hurry to go to bed.
Ti penso sempre
Bye.
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
|18:31|
Firstly, I realise that I have a bad habit of going out in the evening. Not that I am free enough to go out, there are piles of homework waiting for me to finish them, lot of things need to be done (exaggerated). Cuz outside there is no ceiling; there is no walls, no sight of homework, no limit of emotions in which you can release. And in just that instant, you could forget everything that’s in your mind, anything that is bothering you, or anything that throws you into the depression state. Well, if you know what I mean. Also, taking this opportunity, Thanks derrick! For providing a pingpong training centre in your house lol.
Secondly, frankly speaking, have anyone wondered whether the world is only what you SEE it is? Meaning, only what I see exists, what I don’t, don’t exist, when I look infront, those things behind me vanishes etc. Basically this idea bases the world revolving around you. Nice right? Only what you see exists.
Sadly, this aint no case. Everything in this world is connected. I really think it is. Like, when you punch the wall your fist hurts; the wall also hurts right…but since the wall cannot feel pain, somewhere in the world somebody will get hurt. Yar, something like that la. Everyday in this world is also connected. What you have done today will make a different to your tomorrow, or even, change your life forever. You just walked into my life for the first time and then vanishing on the day that follows. What the heck, I think my mind is playing its ridiculous tricks on me…
Don’t think side way...
Thirdly, I think I am really into changing into a diligent person, considering how hardworking I am to finish my homework. : P Well, for 1 and a half week, at least. So yes, for that I received comments from some people saying that I am kiasu. Correction- almost everyone in class. Speaking about kiasu, let me ask, am I really a kiasu fellow? Wait, stop stop, and don’t think further, okok I admit. But what is it often considered notorious for a person to be said kiasu. I mean, is that really a negative terms to describe a person who is scared to lose something? I doubt you would ever think about that. But if you really come to think of it, it’s actually nothing wrong being kiasu. I know, it’s hard sometimes, when emotions are strong and people around simply can’t stand with it. Bear with me ok? Try to understand me… I am still in the midst of working towards optimism and steadiness. And what I wrote in my to-do list isn’t as serious as you think, matt. I was just trying to bangkitkan semangkat. Blekblek :P
Suddenly think of something really funny. Mann! what’s is your first reaction when you find something touches your lip when you are drinking water in ur bottle and then find out that there's a honeystar? Hahaha. LOL! Then the following day is that lots of potatoes underneath your pencil box. Wahaha… laugh until bohgeh man. Don’t come whack me or scold me stupid or pinch me. =D
"Dance like no one is watching. Sing like no one is listening. Love like you've never been hurt and live like it's heaven on Earth." —Mark Twain
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
|22:15|
Hihi people,
Firstly, I’ve made some changes to my blog page. There is a song at the side, if you happen to notice. I had dug up some of my jaychou song…Well, it’s not exactly my favourite, but Jay’s my fav Chinese singer=) . And it somehow brings back and refreshes the memories of the certain happenings in the past. I like it mann… so soothing and yeah, nice. Indulge yourself in this Old song alright? Even if you can’t or find it sucks, don’t feel bad. Some of you might even think that the song is a crap, but who cares?
School still not bad. Actually I could blog tomorrow or some other day during the weekends, but I felt, doing it today might be more sincere, memories might be fresher maybe? Or could it this is the first day, or rather, her first day? Hm... I could say that this is kind of a coincidence. Well, perhaps you still remember ‘her’, I suppose not, so today there was somebody who has come to ‘replace’ her- Both with the same name some would say. How coincidence it is! But no, the spelling is different and the person as well. Really, come to think of it. Well, I am apparently shy, and when asking for people’s name, I felt like a gibberin’ idiot- forgotten and stuffs and later sincerely asked again =) . With ur first week absent from school, please feel right to ask me anything whenever you are having problems in your studies, i'll be more than willing to guide you through if I can, yeah? Shan’t elaborate further. Hey, hey people, don’t get me wrong here. I am speaking from a friendly friend’s point of view, from the perspective of friendship. So, don’t go gossip around. I cherish whatever friendship that I have had, am having, or ever will have.I treasure and appreciate all my friends.
Tossing that aside, let me express some lameness here. BANKAI 100% guarantee will give you immense strength. You just need to shout it out and imagine you are really into it. LOLOL! It works well for me when I am playing table tennis with Sean. Geng leh sean? 11 seconds totally rock!! Just shout- Ban Kai! It works miracles. Whatever.
Ok, nothing to blurt about. Everyone's working so freakin’ hard. Don’t later fail this screw that then come EMO. What’s the use? Happy also like that, not happy also like that. Might as well happy, cuz you can live longer and prevent growing white hairs over you head.XD
Time check- 10.11p.m. I'm off to bed.
See y'all in school tomorrow.
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Saturday, January 10, 2009
|19:10|
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there’s no point in grieving
Doesn’t matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I’m leaving
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone
You know we’ve been down that road
What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons
That roll out underneath my heels
And you don’t know how bad it feels
To leave the only one that I have ever believed in
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone
Sometimes it feels like we’ve run out of luck
When the signal keeps on breaking up
When the wires cross in my brain
You’ll start my heart again
When I come along
Light on- David Cook
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Friday, January 9, 2009
|21:28|
So, how's the first week?
So far so good. Steady, steady.
The teachers have been great, homeworks have been little, nothing undone! The lessons have been interesting, everything is great, i have absolutely nothing to ask for anymore. Just follow the momentum, then it shouldn't be a problem at all, same to you all. Hoo! Wonderful thing already happened in the first week, Guess What?! nobody even online for the damn whole week!!!
I shouldn't even online now, because i am feeling unduly guilty and irresponsible, more when each second ticks by. Of all the 5sc1 students, only me...keep wasting time. Does that sound nice?
Today phy was great. Before I knew it, it was recess and I was like, " what the heck?". *Looking down (eyes shut) and recall the past* how terrible, how noob in physics! Somehow, at least, managed to regain a little confidence, not all, but i am still trying. Of all the things to be worried about, I think I should be more concerned about my form 4 subjects.
I think it's time to do a little update to my list of To-do's
- Train for the 1500m run. Hopefully it won't end up as bad as last year.
- Train for the cross-country which will be held next Saturday.
- I think a little table tennis practice won't do much effect on my studies.
- MUST manage to finish every single homework.
- study...
- study...
- study...
- study...
- study...
- study...
I AM BUSY, BUSY, BUSY, BUSY, busy.
Hope you people are enjoying form 5! :D
They can because they think they can.- Virgil
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Monday, January 5, 2009
|20:28|
School for today- rather surprising and exciting.
They reached school like so damn early in the morning. Well, imagine yourself- a bunch of kiasu 5sc1 people waiting with a tinge of hope at the stairs gate. The next scene- Running all the way up to 5sc1 class whilst feeling like an utter fool. Sheer stupidity man! =) But if you can visualise it, it's really funny. It was an effort though. But who cares? The main aim was achieved. wahahah!
Tell you, if I were to run 100 metres at that instant, I would have won a gold medal. LOL!
Can't believe 5sc1 students are actually kiasu to that extent. Me especially.
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Sunday, January 4, 2009
|15:27|
Yes! yes! Can't wait. How much time has passed? And how much time's left? Truly speaking, I missed the school, my friends, and the wonderful teachers. And going to school will at least get me into doing something. Homeworks, perhaps?
But no matter how many times I go over it, the answer always comes out the same. The more I ponder over it, the more convinced I become that I am walking into some kind of terrible nightmare with excitement.The irony of it all. The truth is, there is no nightmare. I don't think there is any, at least.
I've encountered few of my friends who are worried about SPM this year. We are gotta face the day no matter what. And even when stress put an unbearable strain upon it. hakuna matata! (=D if you don't know, search it up, it may do you some good) Things are bound to improve if you do your part well.lolx. As if I am.
Tossing that aside, just to remind myself that this is my last year in st. David. Crucial year. Can't screw like last year exams. Anyway, i will be the senior of the school, the form 5 student. Lao de. The wise one? Hahas. Wonder how's that feel being the venerable person among the students, big strong and all. But I seem so small when I am standing between chunliang and Sean. - .-'
Hmm... Form 5... Nice stress, I like, I like. Let's see how long I can keep my sanity.
See y'all in school tomorrow.
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Saturday, January 3, 2009
|20:14|
Things are changing all the time. Time is passing all the time. It’s time to say goodbye to 2008! So, after twelve months of form 4, are we really growing up? Becoming a better person? Well, no one can make certain of that. But one thing no one could ever deny is that those days have become the memories of ours, the memories of 2008. I have indeed cherished those memories and I am now all ready to face the year of 2009. Yeah New Year resolution. I shall keep it for myself. Do you have any?
Last year was- Great? Superb? You think so?
Well, to elaborate, let me start to recapitulate things one by one.
Hmm… form 4. From the perspective of curriculum, I was given heaps of homework in school throughout the year but what I did mostly was just copying. Feel bad huh? You think? The subjects themselves were okay overall, not too hard to cope up actually. But the results that came out show the opposite, shows that I was as ignorant as ever. Not that the subjects were hard to understand, but it’s the matter of time planning before exams. Blame it all to myself for procrastinating my study plans. Again and again. And my past mistakes still haunt me, greatly, even now. The more you don’t want to think about them, the more you will. Things don’t rewind themselves, do they? You can’t even find the rewind button, how could you? But at least, I have learnt something from it, from my failure that time control is about the most important thing to bear in mind. Now that I mention it, time in 2009 should be more precious and vital. So, stop wasting time, folk, you are already Form 5. So as the year progressed, just I thought things couldn’t get any worse... But hey! It’s all over now. It’s a whole new year! *heaved a sigh of relief. Have I just done the opposite?
What can I say? I know too well how it feels. But believe me, you won’t feel the same in this New Year. Things never remain the same.
As in clubs and activities, don’t feel like doing much actually, except the duty in my club that needs to be carried out weekly. Simple and easy. Still, gotta thank some of my friends who helped me out and for their cooperation. But the club was nothing also lah, you can’t organize anything. Unless you want a … big mosquitoes gathering at Matthew’s house. Haha! =)
(Guitar club) one of my form 1 friend wants to join the club and thought maybe he can learn how to play it. Haha! Don’t expect too much man! (Chess & pingpong club) I really have fun in the chess and table tennis competition last year. Thinking of joining them again.
Soon, the holidays arrived and most of the time I spent was in front of computer. Sometimes went derrick or lauliang’s house for pingpong. Sometimes dreaming. Sometimes, lazing around. At least managed to complete couple of books due to the overwhelming free time. Frankly speaking, I took unduly long to finish even one book.
Darn! Time really has the ability to wash whatever inside my brain; I have forgotten the entire form 4 syllabus! how? you tell me.
Did I waste my time away?
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Friday, January 2, 2009
|18:00|
My room status- scruffy, dishevelled, rumpled or whatever you name it.
My guitars are collecting dust at the corner of my room. Desk with layers of dust. The air within smells dust. Everything is so dusty. Even my brain began to bite the dust.
Such condition is no longer suitable for studying anymore. It’s time to get a deep cleaning and sort out the mess.
I crap whenever I feel like doing it. =>
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Thursday, January 1, 2009
|20:07|
Desperately trying to find some other stuff to do while sitting in front of the computer, which I failed terribly, and miserably.
Online chatting? Well, I online almost all the time. But people just don't online that often, do they?
And I soon got bored with Facebook, because of the mostly unknown people on the homepage? Or am I some kind of introvert who doesn't know how to communicate with other people? I think I am.
Urm...I've done watching all the Dramas, tv show, movies that I've downloaded.
Got bored with all the games I am playing. Because there’s no trill, no laughter, no element of fun, at all? I mean…How the heck could I once get addicted with them? I must not deny it. I got addicted with one stupid game and the consequences were unbearable and I almost lost the most important thing. Sorry all the Dota gamers out there, it’s not the game I am talking about, but it’s just me that being stupidly addicted to it, ruining and killing time and everything that lies in front of me. You don’t know how bad it feels. Come to think of it, it’s not really worth it. Bah, I guess I just hate wasting time.
Neither do I want to waste time doing useless homework. On second thought, didn’t I just finish them? Oh yes! Buahahaha… I think I am all ready to go to school.
With that, I figure that it’s about time to put an end to the mundane life that I have had durin’ the holidays. There should be no more reason why I should stay in front of computer for hours. Not anymore. School reopens in two more days? Does the thought of it excite you?
It's time to quit gaming and any of the same kind, it's time to be pulled back down by the strings of reality, and it's time to take a deep breath!
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________