Monday, December 14, 2009
Revolving...
Revolving...
If fate is a wheel, we are the cogs that drive it. We have no choice but to believe that this wheel is flawless and forge on ahead.
Revolving...
and each time it's touched by the light of the sun and moon.
It's revolving...
And the world is always changing into something new.
And it just keep on revolving.
If fate is a wheel, then we are the sand that is crushed between the cogs. We are helpless.
And all we want is a change of fate.
|23:22|
It's like a circle, going round and round.
Revolving...
Revolving...
If fate is a wheel, we are the cogs that drive it. We have no choice but to believe that this wheel is flawless and forge on ahead.
Revolving...
and each time it's touched by the light of the sun and moon.
It's revolving...
And the world is always changing into something new.
And it just keep on revolving.
If fate is a wheel, then we are the sand that is crushed between the cogs. We are helpless.
And all we want is a change of fate.
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Sunday, December 13, 2009
|01:27|
"SO WHAT NOW? SO WHAT NOW? SO WHAT if SPM is over. SO WHAT if we have left high school? I would have much to enjoy in my studies and secure a better results."
But is that true? Or is that something I said after knowing only too well that I won't be able to do so?
Well, I have expected something like this to happen. This is too much. I am committing 90% of my time in computer. Let's see.. 8 to 10 hours everyday, until the wee hours of the morning? This is totally INSANE!
The element of fun is soon decreasing.. replacing it is some patina of stronger emotions. Of boredom? And wait a second! Is this the lifestyle I am looking for? Is this what I have been waiting for months to come? What are my aims, goals etc etc? What about my future? One couldn't possibly have avoided something like this from appearing from his head. What was I even thinking?
I wonder if I have wasted my life.
Life is short. It just seems to be so especially with the experience of dealing with SPM previously. So do I need to look up for something new? And even start to consider a part time job? Resume in old stuffs, stuffs that I couldn't do before this, and finish the unfinished? Perhaps I shall have them list down, and then one by one, I will have them fulfilled. That sounds like a damn good idea.
Okay, so let's start now.
But is that true? Or is that something I said after knowing only too well that I won't be able to do so?
Well, I have expected something like this to happen. This is too much. I am committing 90% of my time in computer. Let's see.. 8 to 10 hours everyday, until the wee hours of the morning? This is totally INSANE!
The element of fun is soon decreasing.. replacing it is some patina of stronger emotions. Of boredom? And wait a second! Is this the lifestyle I am looking for? Is this what I have been waiting for months to come? What are my aims, goals etc etc? What about my future? One couldn't possibly have avoided something like this from appearing from his head. What was I even thinking?
I wonder if I have wasted my life.
Life is short. It just seems to be so especially with the experience of dealing with SPM previously. So do I need to look up for something new? And even start to consider a part time job? Resume in old stuffs, stuffs that I couldn't do before this, and finish the unfinished? Perhaps I shall have them list down, and then one by one, I will have them fulfilled. That sounds like a damn good idea.
Okay, so let's start now.
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
|21:08|
finally over.
Wave goodbye to SPM reference booksss, past years questions, wave goodbye to homework and assignment (though i don't do them frequently =D), but wave goodbye to my fellow friends. Just, when will be the next time we meet again?
My high school life is over now. Yes, it is. I can now say I am officially the Ex-St. Davidian. Just months ago we were talking about how long time was there before SPM, just 21 days ago we started on our first paper. Now everything is over. Secondary school life, spm. Time has been fast indeed. And oh, I will stop here, and try not to go further with the subject of time.
Today, was not a good day. SPM was over but it also marks the beginning of another journey of life. As the people would say, the end of secondary life is yet again just the start of another daunting journey. That is, if you do look at the longer road ahead. Of course now I can relax and do whatever stuffs that please me well, but time could pass swiftly as well like it just did. And that is what "scares" me the most. Not that I don't look forward for my future, but when the moment you have been waiting for months came, you get what I mean. My past experience has taught me (though a bit late) that if you have wasted enough time, you would be as guilty as hell, like when you look back at a certain point in the past, you would wish that you have been studying from that moment so that you can now deal with things better. If so, then are we supposed to prepare ourselves on the next stage of our life and restrain from doing the things we like, even spm is over? Is this how it should be?
This morning when I was dressing up, actually by usual I would do it fast, with a little rush so that I could steal a couple more minutes to study. I walked pass the mirror. I stopped there, involuntarily. I took a full minute long look at the uniform I was wearing, and the school badge! I have been wearing it for 5 years since form 1. Today itself is the last time. I remember how nostalgic and how eager I was during form 1, going to the school for the first time and whatnot. It suddenly dawn on me that the time we have now will pass soon. But I need to do more stuffs at the same time!
Today is the 8th of December. I remember what I did during this term last year.
Oh well! Let's not talk too much but do more work. Ws here I come, let's go to war.
Wave goodbye to SPM reference booksss, past years questions, wave goodbye to homework and assignment (though i don't do them frequently =D), but wave goodbye to my fellow friends. Just, when will be the next time we meet again?
My high school life is over now. Yes, it is. I can now say I am officially the Ex-St. Davidian. Just months ago we were talking about how long time was there before SPM, just 21 days ago we started on our first paper. Now everything is over. Secondary school life, spm. Time has been fast indeed. And oh, I will stop here, and try not to go further with the subject of time.
Today, was not a good day. SPM was over but it also marks the beginning of another journey of life. As the people would say, the end of secondary life is yet again just the start of another daunting journey. That is, if you do look at the longer road ahead. Of course now I can relax and do whatever stuffs that please me well, but time could pass swiftly as well like it just did. And that is what "scares" me the most. Not that I don't look forward for my future, but when the moment you have been waiting for months came, you get what I mean. My past experience has taught me (though a bit late) that if you have wasted enough time, you would be as guilty as hell, like when you look back at a certain point in the past, you would wish that you have been studying from that moment so that you can now deal with things better. If so, then are we supposed to prepare ourselves on the next stage of our life and restrain from doing the things we like, even spm is over? Is this how it should be?
This morning when I was dressing up, actually by usual I would do it fast, with a little rush so that I could steal a couple more minutes to study. I walked pass the mirror. I stopped there, involuntarily. I took a full minute long look at the uniform I was wearing, and the school badge! I have been wearing it for 5 years since form 1. Today itself is the last time. I remember how nostalgic and how eager I was during form 1, going to the school for the first time and whatnot. It suddenly dawn on me that the time we have now will pass soon. But I need to do more stuffs at the same time!
Today is the 8th of December. I remember what I did during this term last year.
Oh well! Let's not talk too much but do more work. Ws here I come, let's go to war.
I still remember my dream. The one and only one. _________________________________________________