Saturday, June 12, 2010
|23:19|
Haaiiiizzzzzzzz........
(It doesn't make any difference now that jpa offers me pidn for matric/upu.)As the first sentence implies, I am beyond disappointment. Totally speechless and have nothing more to say.
Life in kmph so far was a breeze. Perhaps real life hasn't really started for me. Okay maybe it has, but it's just that I have completely shoved aside all that was bothering me before this - tutorial homework, tests, quizzes etc etc .. and was in sheer ignorance to the extent of wandering off to slumberland whilst the lectures were in progress. Sometimes waiting is agonizing, especially when you know it would be something quite pointless waiting for, but you still wait, wait for that one day when miracle happens. Nevertheless, it is still clear fact that disappointment and despair will fall into place when it doesn't. Then bleak images of life for another ten months to come become slightly illuminated and with a smack on the face, you realise, you have wasted your time waiting around pointlessly but are left with just one way to reach your destination. You just have to start buckling down.
A recapitulation of my life here in kmph since day 1 is unnecessary, neither is the numerous conflicts that I have encountered, but I shall now proceed to some other things I would like to say.
Friends are crucial. Being in a place full of the best of the best makes you think how much you want to challenge yourself, and push yourself to the limit. You change for the better because you know you want to impress even the best of the best. But this isn't a place meant for this, sorry, but really talk about realistic, you just have to mingle with the 'right' type of person, to keep you moving and pull you up in the middle of the road in case you fall. If there isn't anybody like this, at the very least, you have to be one.
One has to be a chameleon to survive through matric, changing colours along the way according to its surroundings. Ok, maybe it's just too far-fetched but really think about your new study ground, does it compatible with how your brain works? Ask yourself that. Getting enough sleep is already a mission impossible in daily life, and when you're troubled with mountains of assignments and presentations to prepare, think again, about the chameleon.
The first week of orientation was a little tough, with little sleep and unfulfilling meals, but it wasn't worth a mention here. Move on.
Thinking of getting know some opposite genders? Hah forget it, sweet dreams. It's another mission impossible. After all, why let your life revolves around the realm of imagination?
Really talk about our feelings, everything is different here. "Different", you get what I mean.
Meaningless it is, but we fight for pride, fellow people who fathom the statement! So never give up.... until I do.. :D Because I have to start from scratch. And I don't know whether it's going to be a tough time winding around this road to get to the final destination. But I am damn enthusiastic about it.
Yea, so that's it. A new road to walk on. And the journey begins. Now.
I still remember my dream. The one and only one.
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